I am My Beloveds...

As we walk with You
the wonders and mysteries of You are revealed
the outpouring of Your heart
becomes the outcries of our hearts

Not just to live for You
but to also live in You
Not to just Love You
but to also live for Love

To live in the vision You see
to live in the Dream You Dream
to live in what is bigger than us
the heavenly purpose and life You offer

Lord we have to ask
Do we really know what it means to love?
to love You?
with all our minds, soul, heart, and strength?
to give ourselves to You in reckless abandonment?

Do we really live day to day as we are not of this world?
Do we really live like You are alive?
Do we really live like we hold the Truth and Hope for this world?
What does it mean Lord?

Let our lives be a reflection of Your love for us
Let what You do on the inside be expressed from the outside

Written By: Joanna Hernandez

*i wrote this along with whats under this yesterday but it kept messing up when i would post it so i just posted it today instead*

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So like last night, i had the enemy bombard me in my thoughts and emotions big time! satan had put a spirit of doubt over me about even being a Child of God. When i would fight back, the lies would feel my head that i cant say these things because im not a child of God or not worthy enough. How can i be a child of God when i cant give Him my best? what if i cant give him my best? my all? i dont deserve nor can i be a child of God, im not good enough. It was hard for me to believe the Truth i was speaking. Crazy aweful!

But as i just kept trying to speak it and call on my friends to ask them to be praying for me i know God was speaking to me.

One thing i feel like he spoke to me and gave me a relevation about is that God doesnt expect our perfection. He doesnt want our perfection. He doesnt strive for our perfection, He strives for our Heart, our Love. That was so freeing!

God doesnt expect me to never falter, slip up, not give Him my best or all [[thought He loves it when we do and of course wants us to! he desires our best and our all...]] but he knows we are imperfect being, fallen being and is always there with mercy and grace that endures and covers us FOREVER, never does it fall short. So, He knows we will be like i said he is there with mercy, grace, and love for us that surpasses all! he just strives for my heart, love, and affection!

Im still werestling with my emotions a little but VICTORY is in my hands! For i will crush satan under my feet through Christ Jesus!!